Did you know that Love is in you? You Are Love

I love the smell of Nivea....
Everytime I see the small tin I have
I think of the Swedish girls in Ticino
I can't see them, clearly,
I can see the bathroom, I have a sense of it.
A moment.
I am continually reminded of this memory
When I see the little round tin
(Eventhough, I don't think they manufactured these small ones back then,
28 years ago,
Nor was Nivea made in Mexico?)

If I had been any different
then, than I am now
I would not Be Here Now.
If one step could be changed
The entire world changes;
Universes

Where do completely "random" memories come from? And why do they enter our awareness at that moment? The other day I suddenly remembered and thought (and saw with the "mind's eye") about driving on a road, that I have rarely been on, in the area of my hometown. It just popped in and stayed for awhile with vivid detail, as if I had been on that same drive yesterday. But I know the time I, actually, had taken this road was, perhaps, around 8 years ago.

And then there are the synchronicities (big and small?) that, I know, occur all the time but our awareness of them has often been obscured. Or we chalk them up to being just coincidences. Co-Incident. Yesterday, I was watching the Cash Cab, a trivia game show that takes place in a NYC cab. One of the questions was asking for the "media dubbed" name of a serial killer in NY in 1985 (I thought he said "in NY" but realize I "heard" that because this killer had been in California); what came to my mind was Son of Sam. (I said it 'out loud', my daughter was in the room; the answer was: the Night Stalker) A little later I was 1/2 watching an old, November 1993, episode of Seinfeld when the character Kramer says, "Son of Sam." In this episode, Elaine is dating a guy with the name Joel Rifkin (the name of a NY serial killer, caught in 1993). Everywhere he goes his name creates an uneasiness in people. Therefore, Elaine talks to him about popular names she likes without actually suggesting that he change his name (later in the episode he realizes, himself ,that it would be better if he changed his name). She mentions popular names of football players; first she suggests "Dion" and then she says "OJ" (a few months later in 1994 this name would be associated with murder). To me this was a complex "synch" combined with "retro-irony"!


Living in the Now heightens Your perception. "Things" that had been invisible to You before are now clearly in View. For example: the utter beauty of Nature.

Being aware of the transformation is sometimes like being in a constant 'catch-22' scenario. The things that matter the "most" to you, matter the "least" to another person. You're done with struggle but others constantly remind you that you are not struggling and need to do so, immediately! You question the flow, at times, because the entire world is telling you to question. You are a minnow in a giant ocean trying to beat the current. It is time to ride the waves. What can happen? You can die. So what? Isn't that the "worst" that can happen, really? And how do we know if that is "bad"? Give up the struggle and see what happens. Why not? You cannot "control" ANY "outcome". YES!

Spider Silk

It can sound strange to say: "this is the end of a personalized sense of self." But once you realize it, It will make "complete" sense. It is more like the completion of the self but at the same time you know there was never, truly a real "self"..."to begin with."

We have diversity and sameness, both. We have infinity and oneness, both.

We have been "masters" at limitation; we are "servants" of limitlessness.

There is nothing "nice" in "my" life right now. And, at the same time, it is infinitely beautiful.

This body has illness, it has no money coming in from its own "efforts", it has very few friends who can "understand" this body's situation (not said in judgement, just the way it is...it is not "their" fault, no one is to "blame")

This is Universal Love

"Loving What Is"

Because We Exist in the Field of Now

Arguing with What Is never changes It; Stop arguing with What Is changes Everything

I'm "desperate" for someone (else) to talk with about the transformation. The funny thing... is that I can get this urge and then it dissipates rather quickly. A long glance out the window, a pause to watch a breath, a realization that this moment is as it is. There is a paradoxical reality to waking up. On the one hand it has the appearance of "happening" over time; on the other hand We know it happens "in the field" of Now.

In the "old world" we create false burdens for one another. Mostly the stress that we create for ourselves is just an idea. But the funny thing is: to change the idea doesn't always work because the stressful idea will pop back in, without having thought about it. Without intending for it to show up, it gets re-cycled endlessly.

So, what can You do? Pause.