Vessels of Love

We are all vessels of love. If you listen to your thoughts about it you won't believe me. For many, the love is covered over with just thoughts, words, concepts, an ego... a belief. Our experience comes from nowhere and our thoughts about it tell us to doubt our experiences; to make even the experiences become concepts, nullified and void of Life. **

You sense life through your heart, but the mind has wanted to take over. It believes that the heart is foolish, needs more evidence, cannot be trusted. We, actually, do not know where this "heart", I speak of, is located... it is not a thing (I can know this, but I cannot convince you to know it).

This is not essential for knowing. Knowing is not coming from thoughts. You cannot define knowing; the word "knowing" is not adequate to show you what I am talking about, because I'm not able to talk about it.

**Especially, when we judge another human being. We judge another human being as if they had a choice in choosing their experiences. As if they had a choice to be born (one could argue that the soul chooses, which may be true, but it would appear that most humans have had a forgetting, at birth?) This too is mental speculation. Not important. We cannot live each others lives, which we attempt to do with each judgment. We cannot know another experience, ever... but we can sense our own and in this feel the connection to others, as we all experience Life. Whether, conscious or unconscious of this fact.

Open Life

When I was a child, teenager, and younger woman I had a sense that I knew something different than other people, but I never had a satisfactory exchange with another regarding this. (Well, perhaps, that is not completely accurate, I did have brief moments of joy, but they were covered over mostly with thoughts.) It was difficult for this something to come into expression, especially working with the unconscious level that most of us were familiar with.

Mostly, my thoughts and others told me: "I had to be better", "I was not smart enough", "I was not clever enough", "I was not good at debating about politics", "I was not well read", "I was too young to have feelings", "This is the way life is, you have to accept it!"

In that "lifetime", I do not think I could hear anything different than what my thoughts fed to me. If someone liked me, well I didn't like them or I could not believe that they did. Or I had to prove to someone that they must like me, because I liked them so much for not really liking me, in some twisted convoluted mind game we all played.

Now, to see the shift in my own perception is something one cannot imagine. It resided in my heart for "years" and is, at last, free to come into the Fullness of Life.

from Stillness Speaks by Eckhart Tolle, pg 78-79

"When walking or resting in nature, honor that realm by being there fully. Be still. Look. Listen. See how every animal and every plant is completely itself. Unlike humans, they have not split themselves in two. They do not live through mental images of themselves, so they do not need to be concerned with trying to protect and enhance those images. The deer is itself. The daffodil is itself.

All things in nature are not only one with themselves but also one with the totality. They haven't removed themselves from the fabric of the whole by claiming a separate existence: "me" and the rest of the universe.

The contemplation of nature can free you of that "me," the great troublemaker."

Completely Open Vessel

What people say about their situation and the reality of that situation are two different things
---completely different things.

I still carry illusions of my future that never comes. These illusions are not based in reality, they are imaginations or dreams, mind-made objects.

We can't know one iota about a future because we never experience it. This can be understood with our minds. I no longer reconstruct the past. If I talk about the past, I am experiencing it through my memories that are created in the Now. Yes the past is only a memory.

We know, only, the Now and in that same Now moment we know nothing of it.

EVERYTHING arises out of the field of Now... it has to!
E V E R Y T H I N G
For some, ideas or "things" get stuck in the recycling, repetitive thinking mind; for others, there is a peaceful scenery in which we exist. Only a shift in perception is the difference.

I have never claimed to know more than or anything, at all, in comparison to another person.
We can agree that each human being has a different perception. When we share our perceptions with one another, we sometimes describe through words a feeling about the essential nature, the True Nature of Nature, that is the same in each human being. Herein lies the true equality of human beings, something we never asked for, something we are born with and something that remains when we die. Our personas, I as Doreen, dies. I think it is a known fact that our forms shall die. Can we debate that? Once we know that without the formless dimension we could not exist, then I can, unequivocably, state that there is a formless dimension. All labels, words, definitions are forms. Yes, we shall NEVER KNOW the formless, how could we? it has no form. We use forms to refer to it. But, we can know that it is here. Not something that I can convince anyone of, with words.

"I know, I know, I'm on it! I'm "doing the job" I came for! Just like You and You and You; Everyone!"

Trees

What if I am to leave my beloved birches in the backyard?
I have left trees before, some have left me
They still stand, with or without me
Or transform in the fire

I have always been diligent and competent.
Is not everyone capable of being a human?

It is not that important that the mindsets of "others" change. What is most important is that one's own changes. EVERYONE has the potential for waking up. But no one else can effect one's "own" state of consciousness. This is Key to understanding.

For example, in discussions we get "enlightened ideas" but through "habits" we go back to the old ideas over and over again. And without knowing it, we go back to original beliefs. If one "thinks" it is OK for oneself to change but that others cannot, then one hinders one's own change. I hear people label and define other people as if they have a choice as to the state of their consciousness. They do not. All people are born into a situation; are born with collective conditioning... these are not things one "escapes" through thoughts or the "mind". (My sense is that some children being born now, will not have a heavy, conditioned mind)

There is a subtle shift that happens, where everyone is viewed equally in this awakening process. The time line is not important. The external world and the way it "functions" becomes less and less important. Because, one no longer is "at the mercy" of others. Today, for example, the car I and my daughter drive has a problem with the brakes. 3 times yesterday they did not make contact to the drums or rotors(?) so the control of the car was lost, and luckily the car stopped "in time", all 3 times. The car needs repair, no doubt! But when the subject was brought up to the husband, the immediate reaction was "I don't have the money." This is a habitual habit that is not changing because I change; but I realize that he cannot control this. But, now, I have the capacity to find a different solution. For "one of" the first times, I again, realize that he literally cannot hear me.

New Awareness, also, takes some getting used to. Like, Eckhart Tolle, he spent many years before he could talk about what had happened to him. For example, I hear Ellen Langer, what she says is valid. I have not read her book, Counter Clockwise: Mindful Health and the Power of Possibility, but what comes up is this question: How long did these changes in people last? Is it possible that after some time they revert back to their "old" way of thinking? Without one's Own awareness of how repetitive thought is dysfunctional, these changes may not last. But, "once awakened", as a society, living within the field of Now, the children function, also, in this way of Now.

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